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March 27th.. Day 2..

6.43 a.m.  Good morning.. Hee.. I woke up kinda early today.. 

That is because.. I want to enjoy the early morning scenary here!! All I could say is..

 Terima kasih dan syukur kepadaNya kerana masih lagi memberi peluang kepada insan yang kecil ini untuk menikmati sebahagian kecil daripada kehebatan ciptaanNya.. 

While enjoying those view and those peaceful scene.. 

I just could only wish.. How much I wanted to share these thing right here.. 

Right now.. With you..

The weather's today is extremely nice.. Not too hot.. And not too cold.. 

Guess what?? I think this was one of the best day of my life..

 How did I spend it? Let's hear a bit of my story today okay.. Hihi.. 

The first thing that I do is.. I jumped right into the sea!!! Weee!! 

And I spend almost 3 hours++ swimming and floating!! Hahaha!! 

And again.. I was thinking.. I want to share this with you!!! 

Because I know you'd love this!!! The beach and the sea too!!!

And then I'm walking to the seaside.. Cari siput!!!! 

Those seashell were too beautiful!! I was super excited!! 

But then.. I didn't bring any camera or my phone.. 

So I couldn't capture those moments.. But it's fine though.. 

As long as I captured it in my memories.. And I wanted to share this with you too!!!

 Arghhhh!! I'm supposed to clear up my mind from everything on these trip.. 

Eeeee!! Hahaha.. Noob me.. Sighss..

Oh yaaa.. I'm going for fishing too!!! Hahaha.. 

Itu indaa ble tinggal maaa.. Mesti mau mancing maaa.. Hahaha!!

 It's rainy but not too heavy.. So.. I didn't bring my phone too.. Takut jatuh dalam laut.. 

Hahaha.. I want to capture those moments too.. But.. Nahh..

 Just capture it by my mind then.. Hihi.. And the food!!! 

It's awesome.. Non other words can describe it.. 

It's just extremely awesome!!!

Ahhh.. I'm super exhausted today.. 

But it's really nothing though compared to what I've experience for today.. 

Thanks for today.. I'm really and truly grateful for what I'm having for today.. 

I'm going to rest soon.. Too tired.. Haha.. 

Good night.. Sleep tight.. Sweet dreams.. Take care there okay.. 

C katam miss you.. Haha.. And c katam always here for you.. 

Till then.. I write in more..

March 26th.. Day 1..

9:10 a.m. We started our journey to Semporna.. 

All along the way I keep thinking bout her.. Her name keep rolling on my mind.. 

Even though we didn't have any special thing from the first place.. 

I didn't have any idea why I'm being like this.. Sighss.. 

Biar laa tuu -____-"

And then.. I reached Semporna's Jetty.. As far as I could remember.. 

This was the first time I reached here.. But.. According to my dad.. 

Actually I've been here for several time long ago since my childhood..

 I hardly could remember that.. Okay.. Enough with that.. All I could say is..

 I'm super happy coz finally I can go back to the place which I've never been almost 20 years..

To cut it short.. I've reach Pulau Selakan.. Along the way to go here.. 

I couldn't even phrase any words here to picture the beauty of ciptaanNya.. 

Those breathe taking views.. Those wind breeze.. And of course it's super hot.. 

But I clearly didn't mind become darker though.. Coz I'm already dark.. Wakakaka..

I spend my whole day with fishing.. Meet the other island family members..

 They do remember me.. But I really can't remember them.. 

Aiyakkk.. My memories really got problem laaa.. Short-term memories noob.. 

Haha.. The most important thing for today is.. 

The food!!! I'm super love them all.. 

Eeee.. Sedapnya.. Hahaha!!! 

That's all for 26th March.. I going to post this when I'm going back later.. 

Because sni tedaaaa line.. Haha.. All I can do is.. 

Write it in while it still fresh.. Hihi.. Yawnn.. I'm going to sleep first.. 

Eh2.. Hampir lupaa.. I do miss you.. Eventhough I can't contact you.. 

Doesn't mean I didn't miss you much right.. Hihi..

 I just want to take a break for a while from everything.. 

Daaaaa...

I'm gonna break all over again.. I'm tired being like this.. 

I don't know how to act anymore.. I'm completely lost.. 

When I start to feel again.. It end up like this.. 

Should I just continue? Or should I just let it be..

This was the first time I'm feeling about something since the past two years.. 

Am I lose the ability to love some one? Or is it the wrong person and the wrong timing.. 

I'm uncapable of love.. I'm sorry for my sudden behaviour for tonight.. 

I just can't do anything to join in with you guys..

Dear heart.. Please bear with me okay..

It's been almost a year.. And I'm still missing you this much Zul.. There were so much things that I wanted to talk to you.. Many things happen between this one whole year.. And guess what.. I've achieved two or three things that we would had wanted to do before.. I didn't messed up myself though.. Turns out.. Most of it.. It goes as well as we planned before.. Hihi.. 

Without even knowing it.. It leads me to be a better person.. I'm 100% sure that you'd really want this for me.. To be happy.. Makes every second a blast for me.. Although there were times which is hard.. I managed to overcome it.. Maybe not too well.. But still.. It's better though.. Hihi.. 

Ahhh.. There were so many things I want to filled you in.. Till I don't know where to start.. Hahaha.. It would have been better though to share this with you right here, right now.. But.. Hmm.. Noo!! I'm not going to cry.. It's just.. Suddenly, those memories pop out of my mind.. I miss our laugh together.. I miss the way you talk seriously to me.. And I miss your stupid face when you babling all around me.. Wahahaha.. But most of all.. I miss every single thing about you.. I am really missing you right now.. Forgive me for these tears.. It just couldn't stop flowing..

Since I have tons of time for myself.. I mean every night.. Because.. Xda karan kan.. So.. There is nothing to do other than thinking about almost everything.. Wakaka.. Hmm.. Pa lg ahh.. Oh yaaa.. Since I'm in a good mood.. I'm going to tell you this.. I think my heart is opened slowly.. I tried freaking hard to open it for these few months.. Am I succeed? I also don't know.. It's still all blurry.. Nahhh.. Give it more time and space.. I'm sure it will open one day..

How am I? I'm just going to be fine.. Cehhhh.. Hahahaha.. Ndak d tanya pun bh.. Ok laa.. I end it here.. I'm feeling like nothing is wrong.. Just perfect.. Maybe it because I'm writing again.. Kinda miss the time when I keep potpet2 in this blog.. And spit out everything what I'm feeling and thinking.. Bhabuk sda ni blog.. Hahaha.. Till then.. I'm gonna write in more.. Zul I miss you bro!!!! Al-Fatihah..