Wednesday, July 31, 2013

The Dream

0 comments Posted by NeverSm1le at 10:46 PM

Last night.. My dream was very beautiful..
I had never having this kind of dream before..
It just damn indah.. When I woke up.. I was smiling for a minutes..
And hoping.. That was a reality.. So.. I’m gonna write while it still fresh at my mind..


The venue was the at the beach..  I do not know which beach it was..
And I was having fun.. But I cannot remember clearly what was I doing..
 All I remember is mandi laut.. Yeap.. And having all kind of fun..
Suddenly she joined in out from nowhere..


And then… it took a while for us to talk to each other..
From a normal conversation.. to some kind of serious conversation..
But then.. Tears flowing..  And  she made it super clear even though  she never said it..
 That.. She loved me so much and still.. But she just can’t..
And in this dream.. I get my proper farewell as perfect as I planned before..
Even more perfect.. The beach.. The mood.. And everything was totally perfect..
I know its just a dream ^____^

I’m not gonna write in the details here.. Because..
I don’t want to.. Hahahaha!!
I just want to remember this as something.. My ‘que’ to let you go..
Accepting.. That.. I must live on.. Move on forward..
If you’re meant for me.. You’ll catch up just later..
And I don’t mind waiting for you.. Sincerely waiting there xD!!



 

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

I am for what I am..

0 comments Posted by NeverSm1le at 11:42 AM

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooo ^_______________^
It’s been a while since the last entry..
That’s because.. I’ m kind of busy.. With everything.. Hahaha..
Struggling to fill in every inches of my free time..
I did say that I have a huge decision to make before..
And that is.. Ermm.. The 1st path or the 2nd path.. Right???



Well, giving circumstances.. I’ve decided.. Which one I’ll choose..
And the answer is…….. BOTH!!!
I’m so gonna regret this.. =))
Why bother pick both?? Orang tua-tua cakap.. Orang tamak selalu rugi…
It’s not like I’m greedy.. It’s just.. I want to be something..
Something that even myself cannot find the right word to describe it..



These few weeks makes me feel at ease.. hahahaha!!!
Sometimes it feels really good when having someone always be there for us..
My case is not always laaa… Hahaha… Just enough.. Hahaha… Ngam2 d opisssss…
But.. There is a BUT!!! Hahaha…
I’m not into you guys.. Enough with friendship relation..
That’s all I can give.. Nothing more..
Don’t get me wrong.. I just want to live my own life..
My own decision.. And my own freedom..



I moved on.. Hahaha… It takes a year for me to fully move on..
Damn.. Nub me.. hahaha.. So slowwwww.. -_____-
Don’t ever let me hoping again okay??? Even a bit or tiny..
Especially dedicated to YOU!!!
You know what I’ve learn for these past few months??
You are not a tiny different from the others..
Turns out.. You’re just the same..
Luckily I'm not that despo..
True!! I've got nothing to lose xD!!
Plus I did not having any type of LOSS too..
Sighhss.. If only I realized this sooner -____-
Takes me a year to get it.. Sipeeeekkkk slooowwwww!!!!



And now.. Let the game begins ^______^
Bukan game over okay.. It’s just starting xD!!
I’m so glad I got back on my own track..
Never been feel so alive than this..
The price.. Yeap.. The price for making me feel pain..
Makes me suffer.. Makes me turn upside down.. Mess with everything..
I’m definitely NOT gonna make you pay it back.. Wahahaha..
It’s Just.. Karma.. I know you like karma.. And if this karma is true..
I did not have to do anything..
Let the time decide when and where you’ll get the same thing that I’ve been through before..



Wakakaka… Uiii2.. I’m not praying for these..
It’s just suddenly slipped out of my mind.. And I just simply write it in… xD!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I end it here..
No hard feelings okay ^_________^
Lalalalalalaalalala~~~

 

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