Hey... Its been a month now..
Since we've been broke up..
And.. the thing is.. I'm too tired..
Tired to pretend.. Tired to feel nothing..
Tired acting like I'm over with this relationship..
The truth is.. I'm still in mourning period.. LOL!
Its just not fair.. Why is it so easy for her.. For this thing to happen..
Feels like.. She's didn't have any special feeling from the beginning..
Is this relation does not have any value or any worth for her??
As for me.. It feels like.. I'm really suffocated here..
Almost every time feels like I didn't have the ability to breathe..
I just want you to know its hard for me!!!!!!
Even though its been a month..
Plus... You acting like we were never have been in this relationship from the first place!!!
And its really hurting me!!!
Its really weird you get over it with so easy..
Maybe you don't want to make things harder..
Yeap... No doubt... I know that..
I just upset.. Treated like this..
Avoiding by making excuses for anything that I ask..
I'll just get rid of myself if you do not like me around you..
By the end... I'm still loving you..
Hmm..
Just want to thank you for..
Teach me what is loyalty..
Teach me how to love..
How being love..
What we have before..
I would never had it the same with others..
None can replace you..
Really... No one..
I really hate myself for what I am right now!!!
I HATE MYSELF!!!
