Olaa…
On this post pula..
I just wanna say that WELCOME BACK OLD ME..
I really made my mind that.. I want to end this thing..
Really should put an end to that.. Because I hold those
feeling too long already (I think not that long la)..
As a result it cost me sooooo much till I can’t think
normally.. LOL..
And the things that.. Erm.. what should I call it..
Friendship?.. Bestfriend ever? Ohh..
Please don’t make me laugh.. Thing is..
Did you think those thing above will work out.. I mean.. Any
of it??
See now.. THAT THING IS THE MOST UNWANTED THING I EVER WANT
TO HAPPEN!!!
I thought we supposed to hold it at least until we
graduated..
But it seems things happen.. Nothing to blame of..
Yet suffered the most is me.. me.. and ME!!
Why only me?? I really have no idea..
Since I’m not satisfied with one thing here..
I’m just gonna wrote it off..
The hang out thing.. Erm.. How to say arhh…
Hmm.. When I ask you out.. You say don’t want just the two
of us..
Of course I agree… Even though it hurts me a lot.. (trying
to jujur here)
Then.. Time passes by..
“I’ll go out with you the next time if I’m free”(still
considerable even still hurting me a lot)
After that.. “after AR presentation maybe?” (Ok.. I still
can handle and wait.. That pain inside keeps growing)
Finally now.. even after AR.. still didn’t have any chance
to go out with you.. Ahhh.. stupid me..
Hoping for something that’ll never gonna happen..
But.. those three things pain incomparable with the knowledge..
Err.. Pa tuu aaa…
Ok.. The knowledge
that you’ve been hanging out with your friends..
Is it anything wrong about that.. True!! Nothing’s wrong
with that..
You can do whatever you want.. Go wherever you like.. And I don’t
give a damn thing about it..
It’s just.. You say you were busy and didn’t have any time
to spend with me..
But… Going out with others can pula >.<
And.. sure I don’t have the right to argue for what you want
to do..
But please.. If can’t fulfill a promise.. Don’t make any..
You have no idea what I’ve been through that time.. (I mean
that period time of waiting)
As for now.. No more good person.. No more caring thingy..
I’ll live my life for what I see suited the most..
As for you.. I may cannot completely erase you from any part
of me..
It takes time.. Wound may heal.. But the scar’s just don’t..
And lastly.. One thing for sure.. The love for you just won’t
get any changes..
It just keep growing.. And you didn’t have any idea how much
and long it can stand..
These are just myself sulking and babbling moments..
But now.. I choose to make a change.. To endure these thing
alone.. xD!!
